Desiring to be Beautiful

About me:

I'm 23 years old, and currently doing fellowship at a social enterprise in Asia. :]

I just want to look in the mirror and like what I see.

Height: 5'1"

HW: 153.8
4/28W: 139.6
5/07W: 138.8

GW1: 145.0 [X]
GW2: 140.0 [X]
GW3: 135.0 [ ]
GW4: 130.0 [ ]

UGW: 105-115 -- very large shopping spree....



yepp

it was a best-friend day lol. we all went to lunch at a japanese restaurant, [yummyyy], worked on our tans, and went to a turbo kickboxing class

success… =]

Permalink · 11 months ago

finally saw the foot doctor today

…got diagnosed with bursitis and plantar fasciitis in my right foot LOL wtf — i feel like i am a senior citizen.

anyways - he said i could continue working out/running/my standing job as long as i was stretching, icing, and wearing special inserts and heel pads. if it’s not feeling better in 2 weeks i have to get two cortisone shots….into my heel (oh.my.gosh.ow.)

it’s a good thing i can keep working out, too. because my mind is back on track AND i get my belly button piercing in TEN DAYS. i sosososo badly want to be under 130.

Permalink · 11 months ago

my current motivation

is that i’m getting my belly button pierced on June 10th. i will be under 130. 

one of my best friends is getting a tattoo, and i’m getting a naval piercing (yay!). i’m motivated!!

Permalink · 11 months ago

yuckk

i’ve been sick with bronchitis. i can’t do anything that gets my heart-rate up without sounding like a baby’s rattle.

SO annoying. i’ve been so unmotivated =( …. but i was looking online at remedies - tea, fluids, vitamin c, and mustard plasters lol. i think i can do that!

i’m thinking of detoxing these next few days and doing yoga….lots of yoga lol. maybe the random poses and lack of digesting things will get my body focused on the task at hand….breathing….

i don’t know…we’ll see!

Permalink · 1 · 11 months ago

i’m thinking of trying low-carb/paleo….

anyone tried it? what do you think about it?

Permalink · 11 months ago

nike training club work out just kicked my butt….

….guess that’s what happens when you forget to bring weights on vacation. i had only been running while in pennsylvania, no resistance/squats/pushups/etc. lol but i’m feeling good - i’ve got that shaky, satisfied, post-workout feeling!

i might just work out a little later, too =]

Permalink · 1 · 12 months ago

ughh

why is life so stressful ALL.THE.TIME.?

Permalink · 1 · 12 months ago

going to beddd =]

i’m gonna chase after those ZZZs. 

just finished a soccer game (we won!). but my allergies (who knew i even had them until this year????!!!) are a killer, so my inability to breathe well interfered with how hard i played =X

i ate about 1100 calories today and drank over 2L of water. i’m just working on listening to my body after inhaling the world yesterday.

hope you all had a successful day, as well. =)

good night <3

Permalink · 12 months ago

it drives me insane

how i’ll eat super well, or at least everything in moderation, for a week or two…then i spend one night eating the entire world.

i don’t even enjoy it…it must be a habit from back in the emotional eating days. but it is SO frustrating then spending 3-4 days getting back on track. it takes even longer if not all of those days are perfectly calories counted and filled with exercise due to spontaneous eating out or going out with friends that doesn’t allow for more than a couple hundred deficit calories.

oh well - today is a new day. i’ve got my oatmeal, half a liter of water, and my coffee. so we’re starting off strong! 

Permalink · 12 months ago

i feel gross. and sick. and full.

ughh i don’t like food anymore lol. i ate too much throughout the day.

i never want to eat againnnn. (famous last words)

Permalink · 12 months ago