Desiring to be Beautiful

About me:

I'm 23 years old, and currently doing fellowship at a social enterprise in Asia. :]

I just want to look in the mirror and like what I see.

Height: 5'1"

HW: 153.8
4/28W: 139.6
5/07W: 138.8

GW1: 145.0 [X]
GW2: 140.0 [X]
GW3: 135.0 [ ]
GW4: 130.0 [ ]

UGW: 105-115 -- very large shopping spree....



Why I Am Losing Weight

Just to throw it out there to all you wonderful tumblrs - these are reasons why I am losing weight:

  1. for my health - i want to be 90 and still playing tag with great grandchildren 
  2. to achieve confidence - i want to love myself, and not constantly compare myself to gorgeous people around me
  3. i want to wear bikinis and lingerie and KNOW i look damn fine
  4. to have the satisfaction of actually following through on something big and important
  5. as a big “eff you” to anyone who told me I wasn’t pretty
  6. to wear short shorts and short skirts without feeling like a beached whale
  7. to go running in a sports bra and spandex
  8. to not continue exhausting myself with making up for my ‘poor looks’ with self deprecating humor and a bubbly personality
  9. to be able to believe a guy might be interested in me instead of assuming he has an ulterior motive
  10. to learn how to live healthfully before i enter the ‘real world’
  11. to look in the mirror and be satisfied instead of crying with frustration
  12. to not be self-conscious eating or exercising in public
  13. to love my damn arms….and my legs even though that one dimple of cellulite never ever ever seems to grow smaller lol
  14. to not feel as though my friends consider me the fat one
  15. to not be as insecure in social situations