Desiring to be Beautiful

About me:

I'm 23 years old, and currently doing fellowship at a social enterprise in Asia. :]

I just want to look in the mirror and like what I see.

Height: 5'1"

HW: 153.8
4/28W: 139.6
5/07W: 138.8

GW1: 145.0 [X]
GW2: 140.0 [X]
GW3: 135.0 [ ]
GW4: 130.0 [ ]

UGW: 105-115 -- very large shopping spree....



ew ew ew

i legit binged today. i probably ate twice what a normal person should eat. damnit.

i haven’t legit binged in a while - i even ate stuff with gluten in it so i’m sure my skin and stomach are going to look/feel wonderful for the next few days. i’m super frustrated with myself. ughh. i don’t even know what triggered it and that’s what irritates me the most because i don’t know how to stop it from happening again — maybe being tired and irritable from my period?? 

okay just gotta pick myself up and start again. eating super super clean until weigh-in on tuesday. no processed foods, no boredom eating.

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